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I could say that was a joke and on purpose but the truth is that I was and still am completely braindead from school

It's been 1 year and my 333th post.

With my account: Played no battles Read the forum Success!

But it might, as I am the first to respond.

Numinous Epistemology Loquacious Bibliophile Eurhythmic Lollygag All real words.

This one friend named elong1212

I've posted a new story, different from anything else I've posted so far. I hope you all like it!

I've noticed a lot of people are doing these "Road to Legend" stories, but since I'll never get to Legend I'll just post this. Lose's Journey Through Tanki Online Alright. So it starts a really long time ago. Probably about 6 years ago...? I don't know, I'm bad with dates. Anyways, this was before the major graphics update. I had found Tanki through my friend who played it, and my brother and I made our first account. We though we were hilarious, and we named it something along the lines of: Chicken-Butt I know. Comedy. Anyways, we made this account and I mostly played on it as he was about 5. Eventually we forgot the password, so we made another account. Wanna guess what this one was called? Something along the lines of: Cow_Butt We were comedians. Freaking comedians. Anyways, eventually that account flopped too and I gave up on having a shared account. At the time, I was playing this fun game on miniclip.com called "Monster Trucks 3D". This will become useful later on. So I created my first account, and I got to the whopping rank of Sergeant-Major; then my brother gained access to my account, somehow changed the password, and it got lost forever. I was crushed. But my spirit wasn't completely gone. I later on created my highest-ranking account to date. I loved saying the word "the" like a baby, A.K.A "da". My favorite god was Zeus. My favorite game was Monster Trucks 360. Here comes the holy account, . If you look it up now, you can see it's been long abandoned. My K/D was abysmal. I wasn't a mult; I was just inexperienced. You might be thinking: You said this is your highest ranking account? And it's only Warrant Officer 5? Yep, you read that right. My highest ranking account on this game is Warrant Officer 5. It embarrasses me slightly. Anyways, I had some really good friends. Some of which were @elong1212, @bluetornado101, and . I played with them up the ranks, until I fell inactive. Then I forgot the password. No sadness for a game had compared to this. I still persisted, and I made the account with this name, dead serious: . This account was planned to go to the highest rank in the game at the time, Generalissimo. I kept on playing, and I even hooked up the account to my mom's email. I went inactive again; something I seem to do a lot. I forgot the password. Another thing I do a lot. At first, I forgot I had hooked it up to my mom's email. I was devastated again. This game was, and is, like a rollercoaster of emotions. This next part I like to call The Me-Being-Not-Smart-For-A-Whole-Year-Part You thought 8 accounts was a lot? Hah. Amateur. I believed my mom would remember that I had an account password saved. While I was "waiting", I decided to start a new account. I created it, wrote down the name and password on a piece of paper, made it to Master Corporal, and then gave up on it for "taking too long." This process would take about half an hour only. So I'd make another new account, and another, and another, and another. Some of them I would remember, such as , an account dedicated to Hornet and Railgun. Again, another completely "serious" name. Anyways, I did this cycle a LOT. I didn't create just 10 accounts. Not 20. Not even 50 accounts. I did not even create 100 accounts. I created more. I created over TWO HUNDRED accounts over the course of a year and a bit, all with different names and passwords. All written on 2 pieces of paper. But then guess what? Yep. I lost BOTH of the papers. But it wasn't my fault! My mom threw them away whilst cleaning up. I actually cried this time. You might think I stopped playing? Nope! I kept on playing. I started my new "project" account, , where I used only the hunter hull. This was before all the new overdrives and changes to hulls, but still fairly recent. When I went inactive on Tanki for personal reasons, I just left that account. I needed something new. The Forum This was when the craze of simple names was a thing. I was typing in random names and I discovered "Lose" wasn't taken. This account was born. I decided to only use my favorite combo, Wasp and Railgun. A bad choice, but it worked well at first. I was actually managing to keep my K/D over 1.00. I was having fun, and making new friends. Then I looked at the forum. I had been reading the forum while I was bored ever since my daZEUS360 account. It was time to make my own. So I set up my account and my first post was me being mad that I was close to ranking up but then the server restart. I read some stories in the Amateur Writing Section, and was shocked when the feedback wasn't completely all negative. Around this time, multiple people asked me if I wanted to sell my name. My answer was, and always will be no. Back to the forum, I kept on writing stories, getting better and better. I fell inactive on the actual game, focusing on the forum. Eventually I wrote the poem Drown, which was my most emotional piece to date. Now I am here writing this. This has been my journey through Tanki Online. I hope you enjoyed reading this, stay tuned for more stories. I know this is a different writing style than I usually write in, I am experimenting at the moment. Tell me what you think! -Lose

Is there anything specific I should look for or buy when starting new?

My first game in maybe 2-3 months. This is why I stick to the forum.

@Person_Random @Flexoo @kaisdf @Merovingian and more.

I answered your survey, I hope you like it ;)

Is CPR possible on a topic, and if so can you do it after the topic has been dead for about 2.5 months?

AR12 Gaming, Grian, Mumbo Jumbo, Pewdiepie, MrBeast, Daily Dose of Internet, jacksfilms, hermitcraft recap - a show for fans by fans, vsauce, The King of Random (only old videos though, RIP Grant.)

Finally! I'm so skinny I can fit through the bars! I AM FREE

Ah. Fixed.

At the moment I'm experiencing a lack of inspiration for the 999 and Darkness series's, so if it's fine with you all it'll probably only be short stories until I find motivation.

Thank you both. It means a lot. Sorry this took so long to make. Expect more stories soon.

Forza people?

Am I allowed to say happy birthday to myself?

I've fixed the issue, posted a new short poem. Hope y'all enjoy it.

Time wasted away doing things you regret It's not a place where you can easily forget Memories are forever, friendships are fake Life is a test that you can't retake I don't want to be trapped, I want to be free But here I am, chest to my knees I want to go and scream out "HELP ME" But my voice is drowned out in the sea Of voices, all crying in despair Expecting help to appear out of thin air I try to tell people but they're not the same They know and I know they can't feel my pain Life's like a road with no end I make to one turn just to see another bend Trudging along, the punishment gets longer. Roses lose beauty, but their thorns just get sharper My mental health is rapidly declining, I don’t know if life’s worth surviving. I've been thinking long and still don't have answers Cant tell right from wrong, cant tell helpful from cancer Endless circles, it never seems to end, Life’s constantly turning, going ‘round bends I say “I wont give up, whats the point? I'm not one to disappoint” Then I remember reality's harsh work of art, Only those you love can break your heart Slowly giving into insanity, falling endlessly I want to close my eyes, I don't wanna live by guessing Memories that feel as if they occurred yesterday Turn to flashes of moments that seem to fade away. The people you thought you knew now don’t have a clue The times you once shared exists as if you were never there. As the years go by, as your loved ones die you never know when you'll say your last goodbye. I wish I could go back, wish I could turn back time I wish I could go and get what used to be mine But back to today, the memories will continue to fade away I know what i wanna do, just not how to do it I cant seem to make a goal and make it stick Insults be flying as if its one big joke, Just for them to realize the friendship was a hoax Every time I wake up, I fall further down Nobody seems to care as I start to drown I seem happy but at the same time it’s all a lie Eyes are bloodshot from the stress, sanity is a finite supply I know life comes with a cost and sometimes it's rough But now it's time, I've had enough -Lose

Nice job mate, it might help me out if I ever come back to the actual game.

It's never had this problem before... that might be it. I'll check.