Obligatory "goodbye" something or other

[Lose 881]

Damn, it's been almost a year since I've made a topic; so much for "I swear I'll write soon". (to be fair it's not my fault everything got shut down, keeled over, and died). Whatever, I'm just gonna keep this decently short and sweet, cause there aren't that many people left to read this anyways

 

For the most of you who don't know me, I'm Lose (hi!) I've been a long term player, decent term forum lurker, and short-ish term forum user (November 2018). I mainly used the forum for writing in the AWS (now Writer's Corner), where it would seem I gained a following somehow as a sort of "good writer" (crazy people)

 

But now it's time for me to do what I've been doing for the past six months or so, but THIS time with this post to go with it! So yeah, short and simple; I'm leaving, I guess, technically.

 

It's been a blast writing stories for y'all to read, and it's genuinely astonishing to look back at my first pieces and see how far I've come as not only a writer, but as a person. I started writing when I was 12; Drown came out on my 13th birthday. I'm now 15, well into high school, and doing things I thought previously to be impossible.

 

Of course, it hasn't always been easy. Nothing in life is. I've struggled with mental health problems for quite a while, and I think that's apparent in my writings (shoutout to vene for actually asking if I was okay once cause my writings were getting more and more depressing). But I stuck and am sticking through it for those who I care about, and those who enjoy what I put out.

 

I never really intended to just fade into obscurity (this implies I was at some point out of obscurity ignore this dichotomy), but I guess that's just how life works sometimes. However, I do not plan to just have my final goodbye be a whimper and this overly long, rambly, soppy mess. I do have some things for the maybe 2(?) people that will read it.

 

Whelp, I'm tired of rambling on now. Thanks everyone for making my time here bearable, it's been an absolute blast.
 

 (I would shoutout folks, but I'm lazy. nonetheless, a massive thanks all AWS/Newspaper folk that helped me become the writer I am now!)

 

((If you're wondering for some reason: I do still write. Been writing poetry daily since 8/24/23, and a few short stories dotted throughout. If you're ever curious for whatever reason, add me on Discord - username is purededicatoin))

 

Goodbye, kind of, I guess, maybe.

 

~Lose

Edited September 1, 2024 by Lose
Finally fixed some of the grammar issues and outdated info that's been bugging me for months. Hello World

[Incorp 2,084]

4 minutes ago, Lose said:

Damn, it's been almost a year since I've made a topic; so much for "I swear I'll write soon". (to be fair it's not my fault everything got shut down, keeled over, and died). Whatever, I'm just gonna keep this decently short and sweet, cause there aren't that many people left to read this anyways

 

For the most of you who don't know me, I'm Lose (hi!) I've been a long term player, decent term forum lurker, and short-ish term forum user (November 2018). I mainly used the forum for writing in the AWS (now Writer's Corner), where it would seem I gained a following somehow as a sort of "good writer" (crazy people)

 

But now it's time for me to do what I've been doing for the past six months or so, but THIS time with this post to go with it! So yeah, short and simple; I'm leaving, I guess, technically.

 

It's been a blast writing stories for y'all to read, and it's genuinely astonishing to look back at my first pieces and see how far I've come as not only a writer, but as a person. I started writing when I was 12; Drown came out on my 13th birthday. I'm now 15, well into high school, and doing things I thought previously to be impossible.

 

Of course, it hasn't always been easy. Nothing in life is. I've struggled with mental health problems for quite a while, and I think that's apparent in my writings (shoutout to vene for actually asking if I was okay once cause my writings were getting more and more depressing). But I stuck and am sticking through it for those who I care about, and those who enjoy what I put out.

 

I never really intended to just fade into obscurity (this implies I was at some point out of obscurity ignore this dichotomy), but I guess that's just how life works sometimes. However, I do not plan to just have my final goodbye be a whimper and this overly long, rambly, soppy mess. I do have some things for the maybe 2(?) people that will read it.

 

Whelp, I'm tired of rambling on now. Thanks everyone for making my time here bearable, it's been an absolute blast.
 

 (I would  shoutout folks but I'm lazy, but a massive thanks all AWS/Newspaper folk that helped me become the writer I am now!)

 

((if you're wondering for some reason: i do still write! and if u still wanna talk to me, shoot me a Discord dm purededicatoin#5301))

 

Goodbye, kind of, I guess, maybe.

 

~Lose

You have got to be kidding me. Seriously.

 

Will miss you! Good luck in real life!

[Lose 881]

5 minutes ago, Incorp said:

You have got to be kidding me. Seriously.

 

Will miss you! Good luck in real life!

Thank you! Just remember: the big bang finale isn't here yet. I think you'll like it (I am 100% overhyping it but I am allowed to do that)

[E_polypterus 2,374]

Dayum we be seeing too many players leave.

Anyway, Lose whenever I see your name, I’m reminded of the AWS lol

Sad to see you go too, but life is life..

 

All the best t t : )

 

[E_polypterus 2,374]

And try to lose less and win more

[Lose 881]

1 hour ago, E_polypterus said:

Dayum we be seeing too many players leave.

Anyway, Lose whenever I see your name, I’m reminded of the AWS lol

Sad to see you go too, but life is life..

 

All the best t t : )

 

I'd hope it's the AWS seeing I rarely talked anywhere else; I'd have to had said something pretty controversial to be remembered for a different section ;D

 

But yeah, life is life. Time to go and do different things with my life (like being productive.

 

1 hour ago, E_polypterus said:

And try to lose less and win more

I try, but my name is a self-fulfilling prophecy 

[Venerable 2,967]

On 4/5/2022 at 10:48 AM, Lose said:

(crazy people)

Thanks for the compliment!

On 4/5/2022 at 10:48 AM, Lose said:

But now it's time for me to do what I've been doing for the past six months or so

LOL

On 4/5/2022 at 10:48 AM, Lose said:

doing things I thought previously to be impossible

:Heart_On_Fire: (ugh zis forum no have that epic emoji, admin pls add)

On 4/5/2022 at 10:48 AM, Lose said:

shoutout to vene for actually asking if I was okay once cause my writings were getting more and more depressing

It was really an awkward moment... You were "acing the depression genre", so I was happy for the writer in you, but then it was the depression genre...  

On 4/5/2022 at 10:48 AM, Lose said:

maybe 2(?) people that will read it.

Don't you dare  (this set of emojis looks rather sus, but nvm ph34r)

 

 

This should have been a shock, but since you're such an amazing writer, I actually ended up chuckling while reading this topic. Dayum bro, sad to see you — one of the BEST writers that the AWS ever saw — leave... I had the privilege of approving the tip of the iceberg of content that you posted in this sacred space, so yeah — the void you leave behind might as well be a black hole.

Anyway, I'll stop fooling around with words now lol. All the best in life, man. Do well, have fun, keep writing, and know that your readers are here for you whenever you need us! 

Much love, stay safe and sound

[Lose 881]

1 hour ago, Venerable said:

Thanks for the compliment!

LOL

:Heart_On_Fire: (ugh zis forum no have that epic emoji, admin pls add)

It was really an awkward moment... You were "acing the depression genre", so I was happy for the writer in you, but then it was the depression genre...  

Don't you dare  (this set of emojis looks rather sus, but nvm ph34r)

 

 

This should have been a shock, but since you're such an amazing writer, I actually ended up chuckling while reading this topic. Dayum bro, sad to see you — one of the BEST writers that the AWS ever saw — leave... I had the privilege of approving the tip of the iceberg of content that you posted in this sacred space, so yeah — the void you leave behind might as well be a black hole.

Anyway, I'll stop fooling around with words now lol. All the best in life, man. Do well, have fun, keep writing, and know that your readers are here for you whenever you need us! 

Much love, stay safe and sound

Thank you for the kind words! I would usually go and say something self-deprecating about how I wouldn't say I'm one of the best, but it seems I've been proved wrong yet again. As for the space I leave behind -- I hope it's not too big. But even if it is, sometimes the absence of good is what leads to better.

[kaisdf 3,320]

I know I'm uh... a bit late to this, but hey ig that's how I roll.

 

I remember you first appearing in the AWS, dropping occasional masterpieces to break up the monotony of other typo-filled, broken-story pieces submitted. I always looked forward to yours.

 

I know you were young when you started, but I had always hoped to see you in the reporter team at some point - pity that isn't even the case for us anymore lol.

 

Good luck with everything, you're a smart kid so I'm sure it'll all work out.

[Lose 881]

10 hours ago, kaisdf said:

I know I'm uh... a bit late to this, but hey ig that's how I roll.

 

I remember you first appearing in the AWS, dropping occasional masterpieces to break up the monotony of other typo-filled, broken-story pieces submitted. I always looked forward to yours.

 

I know you were young when you started, but I had always hoped to see you in the reporter team at some point - pity that isn't even the case for us anymore lol.

 

Good luck with everything, you're a smart kid so I'm sure it'll all work out.

Hey, give the other pieces some credit; some of them we're truly amazing (better than mine for sure). Glad you looked forward to mine, though. Stuff like that is the reason I was and still am writing. Thanks for the kind words!

[Person_Random 4,991]

tragically unfortunately, i'm also part of the late train, and it makes me so sad to have missed out on this post. i've been doing things such as probability (lots of it, much to the dismay of neckbeards), getting covid, and being stared down by phd students (im a trash bag but yes) but one thing i do is that i always pay respects (hopefully) and be a nice person (depending on my focus state).

Enough of my rambling; it's time to say what I really wanted to say. After all these years, I'm so glad to be blessed by so many writing legends who have taught me so much, and it hurts each time when they leave one by one, especially the ones that had such huge impacts and people I've actually been able to interact with. I just remember reading your stories as a young child at church (how scandalous breaking the rules) and feeling so inspired by the breath of fresh air, so much so that it made me want to get up and start writing again. Your writing has always been an inspiration and something I constantly look up to - I always feel like there's something I can learn from it, and it was great working with you as colleagues in the AWS and in various projects since.

And as kaisdf mentioned, we were all anticipating the day that you would join us in the (arguably super cool and amazing) reporter team, but alas, things are not how they were. However, as the doors of reportership close, there are many more opportunities ahead in real life, and I know that your talent will bring you success there. I wish you nothing but the best in the next stage of your life.

21 hours ago, kaisdf said:

break up the monotony of other typo-filled, broken-story pieces submitted.

also rude man my typos are made with  style  don't diss them 

[Lose 881]

7 hours ago, Person_Random said:

tragically unfortunately, i'm also part of the late train, and it makes me so sad to have missed out on this post. i've been doing things such as probability (lots of it, much to the dismay of neckbeards), getting covid, and being stared down by phd students (im a trash bag but yes) but one thing i do is that i always pay respects (hopefully) and be a nice person (depending on my focus state).

Enough of my rambling; it's time to say what I really wanted to say. After all these years, I'm so glad to be blessed by so many writing legends who have taught me so much, and it hurts each time when they leave one by one, especially the ones that had such huge impacts and people I've actually been able to interact with. I just remember reading your stories as a young child at church (how scandalous breaking the rules) and feeling so inspired by the breath of fresh air, so much so that it made me want to get up and start writing again. Your writing has always been an inspiration and something I constantly look up to - I always feel like there's something I can learn from it, and it was great working with you as colleagues in the AWS and in various projects since.

And as kaisdf mentioned, we were all anticipating the day that you would join us in the (arguably super cool and amazing) reporter team, but alas, things are not how they were. However, as the doors of reportership close, there are many more opportunities ahead in real life, and I know that your talent will bring you success there. I wish you nothing but the best in the next stage of your life.

also rude man my typos are made with  style  don't diss them 

Thank you for this! I'm glad you looked forward to my works, and I'm also glad you seem to be including me in with the "writing legends" part, which is really cool lol

 

 But yeah, people looking forward to my works is one of my main motivators. I'll be honest - I was also anticipating that day of reporterhood, but I guess I was too powerful. 

[Sabry 1,072]

Better late than never, but here's my message for you:

 

Thanks for everything, I remember when you made a server about poetry, there was also this nub @Venerable too (hoping one day he sees this message, PS you nub Vene).

I was quite impressionated (and it's not that easy to impressionate me, believe me) about your skill and your organization. You were really organized, and kaisdf wasn't the only one who wished to see you in the newspaper team. You really had the qualities in my opinion to become a reporter, and likely one of the best (at least better than this nub @Sacrifice since he would have almost nothing to correct.). Jokes apart, you're a great person, and your studies will pay, this is what I hope for you.

Good luck in your life, and remember that we're with you

[Lose 881]

On 4/4/2022 at 9:18 PM, Lose said:

I'm now 15, well into high school, and doing things I thought previously to be impossible.

It's weird to look back on old things I've said, when I thought I was all high and mighty being the grand old age of 15 (I say this, but I'm still not even 18 yet (in October) (greetings from university by the way!))

[Incorp 2,084]

On 8/28/2024 at 3:47 AM, Lose said:

It's weird to look back on old things I've said, when I thought I was all high and mighty being the grand old age of 15 (I say this, but I'm still not even 18 yet (in October) (greetings from university by the way!))

I am turming 15 next week, so im trying not to do anything that might embarrass myself when i turn older. I try not to think of myself as capable of doing many things, because of course when i get older i would be capable of doing many more things. Then i would look back and think what a dumdum i was. In fact ive been thinking that since i was 13 lol.somehow always think my younger self is so dumb because i thought i am so 'grownup' and can do so much awesome stuff(chores) or whatever. I guess what i never noticed was that i will always be doing things ive never done before and look back to think how dumb i was to think i knew a lot back then. But maybe i will always be looking back and thinking how foolish i was. It is driving me crazy trying to do things without making myself embarrassed down the road. 

But i bet in a few years i will look back at this and think 'why did i write this? That was so dumb!' So maybe it is an unavoidable part of life

Edited August 29, 2024 by Incorp
Had no idea i was ranting sorry :x

[Lose 881]

On 8/28/2024 at 6:31 PM, Incorp said:

I am turming 15 next week, so im trying not to do anything that might embarrass myself when i turn older. I try not to think of myself as capable of doing many things, because of course when i get older i would be capable of doing many more things. Then i would look back and think what a dumdum i was. In fact ive been thinking that since i was 13 lol.somehow always think my younger self is so dumb because i thought i am so 'grownup' and can do so much awesome stuff(chores) or whatever. I guess what i never noticed was that i will always be doing things ive never done before and look back to think how dumb i was to think i knew a lot back then. But maybe i will always be looking back and thinking how foolish i was. It is driving me crazy trying to do things without making myself embarrassed down the road. 

But i bet in a few years i will look back at this and think 'why did i write this? That was so dumb!' So maybe it is an unavoidable part of life

Do things without fear of being embarrassed down the road -- you'll be embarrassed that you were scared anyways

[Incorp 2,084]

On 8/30/2024 at 11:34 AM, Lose said:

Do things without fear of being embarrassed down the road -- you'll be embarrassed that you were scared anyways

I think you are probably right, it has been driving me crazy the past few months. Perhaps it is an inevitable feeling when looking back at younger days.

[Jeers4U 665]

On 8/28/2024 at 10:31 PM, Incorp said:

 im trying not to do anything that might embarrass myself when i turn older.

If you will permit me...

Mark Twain said:

'Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor...'

 

He was 100% correct.

[Lose 881]

On 8/31/2024 at 5:11 PM, Jeers4U said:

If you will permit me...

Mark Twain said:

'Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor...'

 

He was 100% correct.

Such a good quote

[DefkwargX 152]

Always sad to see such a post

[Lose 881]

On 8/31/2024 at 10:35 PM, DefkwargX said:

Always sad to see such a post

It's funny to see it getting more traction two and a half years later. I've got some cool things that I've written since, just not sure if I want to publish them here (some of them I know I can't as per the content in them).

[DefkwargX 152]

On 9/1/2024 at 11:40 AM, Lose said:

It's funny to see it getting more traction two and a half years later. I've got some cool things that I've written since, just not sure if I want to publish them here (some of them I know I can't as per the content in them).

Yea lol. The only reason i knew about the existence of your post is because you recently replied to someone here and i usually check the "Unread content" section. I will DM u on discord later on, you can then share with me what you've written in the past, because i like to read posts of enthusiastic tankers

[Incorp 2,084]

On 9/1/2024 at 9:11 AM, Jeers4U said:

If you will permit me...

Mark Twain said:

'Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor...'

 

He was 100% correct.

100% will follow that through mark twain a top tier author, recently got The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn for freee from the library bookshare station. Still in the middle but its amazing his short stories are awesome too recently read one with my english class, cant remember the title but its good.

On 9/1/2024 at 3:40 PM, Lose said:

It's funny to see it getting more traction two and a half years later. I've got some cool things that I've written since, just not sure if I want to publish them here (some of them I know I can't as per the content in them).

Where can i find your works thst you havent published here? Would be a pity to miss out on it ngl

[kaisdf 3,320]

On 8/27/2024 at 8:47 PM, Lose said:

It's weird to look back on old things I've said, when I thought I was all high and mighty being the grand old age of 15 (I say this, but I'm still not even 18 yet (in October) (greetings from university by the way!))

On 8/29/2024 at 3:31 AM, Incorp said:

I am turming 15 next week

 

All I'm gonna say is that I remember both of you being extremely capable authors, and I'm surprised to find out you were both so young doing it - I hope life has treated you both well since the closure of the Newspaper/AWS, and continues to do so xx

 

[Lose 881]

On 9/2/2024 at 10:22 AM, Incorp said:

100% will follow that through mark twain a top tier author, recently got The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn for freee from the library bookshare station. Still in the middle but its amazing his short stories are awesome too recently read one with my english class, cant remember the title but its good.

Where can i find your works thst you havent published here? Would be a pity to miss out on it ngl

I don't really have a specific place/forum where I post my stuff, but any writing servers that I'm in, I'll post my stuff there (we have a few servers we share together if my memory serves me right

On 9/2/2024 at 3:20 PM, kaisdf said:

 

All I'm gonna say is that I remember both of you being extremely capable authors, and I'm surprised to find out you were both so young doing it - I hope life has treated you both well since the closure of the Newspaper/AWS, and continues to do so xx

 

Thank you! Seeing I'm still here, I'd say it's going pretty well. I get to lick rocks too