I just moved to a different country for college, having been homeschooled my whole life, and now everything is so different, but whenever I make friends then they are always with their other friends so I constantly feel like I'm intruding on their friendship because everyone has friends they've known for years and years, and I've never really had friends so I feel like I have the social capablity of a 10 year old even though I'm 16, just because I've never been part of a group of people who are close to my age that I have something in common with. And although I am british but I spent my whole life abroad, and now I've been in the UK at college for a few months I've recently realised that I never once felt homesick, and that's because I don't even know where home is. I don't even know anyone in the entire world close enough that I can talk to them about what's going on in my life, my only sibling is older than me and bullied me my entire life, I'm certainly not comfortable saying anything to my parents. And I grew up in the middle of the countryside kilometres from anywhere, and now I've moved to a medium sized town, but to me it feels massive, and I feel crammed in, where anywhere I go there are people, lights and big roads, and I've taken to walking about 15km away from the town at the weekends just to try and release the stress and get away from everything. Even though I enjoy college, as soon as I leave I feel trapped and like I'm completely alone, even though there are hundreds of people all around me.