What Should I Do?

[LOLKILLERTOTHEDEATH 1,921]

It is I (not my brother) I had to ask for advice. I doubt anyone's gonna give a care, but if you want to waste two minutes of your life, read ahead

 

Things feel completely hopeless to me. I try my best to get good grades, I go talk to teachers, ask them for help 7 or 8 times for a project, and yet the best grade I have is a B. Maths and Science are my favorite so to speak. I put in 7-8 hours studying at least a week before a test, and get B's, other people only play games and have girlfriends and watch you-know-what and still get A's. I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong. As an example, I spent easily a total 20 hours, 3 weeks before the major test, which happened, and I got a 60.5, average. No one at my school wants to be with me, because I am so hideous and dumb, at the same time. People say, that everyone has something special about themselves. I discovered what mine is. My specialty, is being extremely useless. I cannot cope well with work or get good grades, and neither am I social.

 

My parents say I'm handsome and smart, but I know they joke. I'm like an angelfish (just google the image) and about as smart as a donkey, no wait, actually dumber than a donkey, even a donkey knows how to survive. 

 

I'm honestly so tired of living life, even though what I've "lived" is very little and also hell. If you have any helpful comments, please post, and if you have useless comments, just post anyways, nobody can save me now. I am doomed.

[beaku 2,656]

Waw.. Feels like I'm talking to myself. Seriously, I'm not kidding. I have been (and still am) in the same phase as you so I have an idea of what it feels like. I'm stuck in a dirty system, in a narrow minded society with a bleak future. And no, I won't say the stereotypical consolations to 'have hope' and 'look on the bright side'. Pffffffft... It's easy to say that when you're not doomed. So, what can you do? Die? Definitely not. That's not a solution. You won't end pain. You'll only pass it on.

You talk about tests, I spent about 5 years of my life preparing for one... And failed. And now I'm trying again. Not because I have hope. But because I refuse to be beaten by a piece of paper. All the anger and desperation I have, has been channelised into preparing for this test. It's not the best mindset for preparation, I admit. But, desperate times call for desperate measures.

I can only tell you what I feel and know. I can't help you more till I know more about you. So, feel free to drop in a PM (or Skype) and I'll answer for sure ;)

[railguniz4noobz 2,394]

^^^ what he said

[Guest]

I have been same phase as you. No one wanted me, all my mates were making fun of me, they had friends and girl friends which they boast about. I tried to be same as them, entertain friends, make friends, do hideous things like stalking girls etc. the results were that I became egoistic, showoff and arrogant. Lost my friends (the only friends) I had. But this all changed when I realized it. And this time I was in new school, kept (and keeping) secrets about past, making a distance from girls and mostly made my own character, and copied some good habits from new friends like reading a chapter before explained in class and stuff. This made me myself and my grades touched A1's and A2's. Now I am good in both gaming and studying. 

 

The only moral I give out is, Be yourself and copy good abilities and habits of your friends. I know this won't make you be original but this is just another innovative fix. (Jugaad) 

 

 

Hope you wasted a minute by reading this.

 

Waw.. Feels like I'm talking to myself. Seriously, I'm not kidding. I have been (and still am) in the same phase as you so I have an idea of what it feels like. I'm stuck in a dirty system, in a narrow minded society with a bleak future. And no, I won't say the stereotypical consolations to 'have hope' and 'look on the bright side'. Pffffffft... It's easy to say that when you're not doomed. So, what can you do? Die? Definitely not. That's not a solution. You won't end pain. You'll only pass it on.
You talk about tests, I spent about 5 years of my life preparing for one... And failed. And now I'm trying again. Not because I have hope. But because I refuse to be beaten by a piece of paper. All the anger and desperation I have, has been channelised into preparing for this test. It's not the best mindset for preparation, I admit. But, desperate times call for desperate measures.
I can only tell you what I feel and know. I can't help you more till I know more about you. So, feel free to drop in a PM (or Skype) and I'll answer for sure ;)

Invite me in that pm or skype group if you are having conversation on that topic :)

Edited November 28, 2016 by Quasar

[Quarks 2,255]

Damn, that is actually quite tough. I can't say I've been through that exact problem, but I've been close. All of last year, I could seem to do no good, the only As I had were in 2 electives (orchestra), and a handful of Bs. I enjoyed math and science too, but again, couldn't seem to do well. And like you, I really tried, I actually studied, I wanted to do well. I'd do almost anything to please myself and my parents and everyone watching. By the end of that year, I gave up, full on gave up. It just didn't seem worth it. Came close to suicide a couple times. It always seems to get worse until it gets better.

 

Moral: Just keep your head up and keep going. Life goes to absolute **** sometimes, and the best people learn to cope with it. I suggest, if you can, ignore what other people say/ think about you. Just keep working at it and trying. Find 1-2 close friends who will actually support you and want to help you. Sure, some people just seem to be perfect, but hey, give the finger to them and just keep going.

 

Also, feel free to drop me a PM if you want someone to talk to, I'd be very happy to help. Or send me a message on skype. I will be happy to help if you need it. Kepp your head up m8.

[Spit_Fyre 334]

Just curious, are you a virgo by the zodiac? Or an upset leo maybe?

[Quarks 2,255]

Zodiak signs mean absolutely nothing.

[railguniz4noobz 2,394]

Zodiak signs mean absolutely nothing.

Incoming triggered people...

[Quarks 2,255]

^great for them

[Guest]

^great for them

++ I dont believe in zodiacs either. I consider it as BS.

Edited November 29, 2016 by Quasar

[LOLKILLERTOTHEDEATH 1,921]

I dont know why, but I've taken a liking to this 1 girl. So in classes that don't really matter (free period, Spanish, P.e.) I keep staring glances at her.

 

I have determined the reason behind this to be...logical.

 

My conclusion, is that I'm succumbing to the horrible thing known as p*****y. I am slowly losing my sanity, and eventually, I will end up doing things so stupid, I won't understand why I did them. This example, seems to be a perfect example of me losing my sanity. I never used to stare/stare glances at that girl, or for that matter, any girl. obviously I'm not even going to try to be her friend, let alone her "boyfriend."  

 

Although I find it most illogical, that this girls stares back at me every couple of minutes.

 

Yup, definitely losing my sanity.

[beaku 2,656]

Not sure why you'd censor 'puberty'... It's not exactly something that needs censoring. :huh:.. And oh well, now I'm definitely sure I'm talking to myself xD. As I said before, I'd love to discuss this but I'd rather not go deep into these issues in public. If you feel upto it, drop in a PM ;)