Push Through

[Logician_UC 37]

Push Through

 

 

Most don't feel it, that empty void. An apathy for everything. You act out that you care, that you're happy, but there is nothing there. It's as if you lost all connection to this world and now are just some life force trapped inside a body.

You've forgotten how to feel anything, except... this. It isn't sadness exactly, at least not in the normal sense. But it certainly isn't anger, or joy, or bliss. It's... something else entirely. Nobody would believe you even if you told them. They'd think you're just being dramatic or you're tired or trying to get attention.

Why? Why does this happen? You've all but forgotten the sensation of emotions even if you had them just yesterday. So why are they gone? You can feel that they are missing, maybe even what they were like. But... they're just not there anymore. You just want to sense something. Even anger would be better than this void, this hole of anything.

Pain. Pain should be the remedy, the only sense that is left to you that can be enjoyed it seems. A cut and a wince, but there is nothing still. That was such a momentary relief and it was hardly one at all. You need more, something more powerful. Cut deeper, and yet nothing, it's even less satisfying than the last time, as if your mind has grown numb of letting you sense anything anymore.

There must be something, something to feel. But there isn't. So you sit there. No tears, no crying, no smile, no warmth. There is... nothing. You want to cry, but you can't, because any moment now someone might come in and you don't want them to see you like this for some reason. You bandage yourself up and hide it away where no one can see. They wouldn't understand, so they'll never know. You are destined to walk around this world in pain of having no pain. A human child who sometimes simply cannot feel.

But do not give up hope! Those times may be dreadful and even terrify you. But there is always something better on the way, maybe just in a year, maybe it'll take a decade or more. But endure it, if not for you, for the people who you would harm if you gave up. Because no matter what, there's always someone out there who will feel the pain of loss, and might take up that burden you had. So don't be slicing into yourself just to feel something, everything will be okay in the end if you push through the right and hard road. After all, it is people like you who conquer a world that tries to break you down. You who beat away a beast that only some can so much as lay eyes upon without breaking.

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Thank you for writing this. It means a lot to me personally.

Edited May 18, 2017 by Blackdrakon30

[Logician_UC 37]

Thanks!

Wasn't entirely sure anyone would get anything fron it, but glad it did. I was just rather stressed at the time.

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Nicely written  :)

[Logician_UC 37]

Nicely written  :)

Amazing work! :D

Thank you!

[DRAKO523 795]

​​​​​This Is Great  ;) 

[ShaftBusted 23]

Very well written Logician_UC, you make your clan, and clan leader proud.  You have a deep understanding of the human condition and the realities of modern life. If i didn't know better I would say you have an emotional maturity of a mid age psychologist.

This writing is bang on the mark of what many people experience on a daily basis.  I have even felt this way once or twice in my life.  Described like someone going through the pain in real time, oh I pray not for you my friend.  If so please seek help, and my proverbial door is always open to my friends, should you need to talk. 

 

ShaftBusted_UC

[mynameisdaniel_2015 144]

great read, unpretentious and really touching. A  big problem that's only recently been addressed

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Thank you for writing this. It means a lot to me personally.

Great job :o  but it is  ''Than'' not ''Then'' & some grammatical mistakes too :)