Drown

[Lose 881]

Time wasted away doing things you regret

It's not a place where you can easily forget

Memories are forever, friendships are fake

Life is a test that you can't retake

 

I don't want to be trapped, I want to be free

But here I am, chest to my knees

I want to go and scream out "HELP ME"

But my voice is drowned out in the sea

Of voices, all crying in despair

Expecting help to appear out of thin air

I try to tell people but they're not the same

They know and I know they can't feel my pain

Life's like a road with no end

I make to one turn just to see another bend

 

Trudging along, the punishment gets longer.

Roses lose beauty, but their thorns just get sharper

My mental health is rapidly declining,

I don’t know if life’s worth surviving.

 

I've been thinking long and still don't have answers

Cant tell right from wrong, cant tell helpful from cancer

Endless circles, it never seems to end,

Life’s constantly turning, going ‘round bends

I say “I wont give up, whats the point?

I'm not one to disappoint”

 

Then I remember reality's harsh work of art,

Only those you love can break your heart

Slowly giving into insanity, falling endlessly

I want to close my eyes, I don't wanna live by guessing

 

Memories that feel as if they occurred yesterday

Turn to flashes of moments that seem to fade away.

The people you thought you knew now don’t have a clue

The times you once shared exists as if you were never there.

As the years go by, as your loved ones die

you never know when you'll say your last goodbye.

I wish I could go back, wish I could turn back time

I wish I could go and get what used to be mine

But back to today, the memories will continue to fade away

 

I know what i wanna do, just not how to do it

I cant seem to make a goal and make it stick

Insults be flying as if its one big joke,

Just for them to realize the friendship was a hoax

 

Every time I wake up, I fall further down

Nobody seems to care as I start to drown

I seem happy but at the same time it’s all a lie

Eyes are bloodshot from the stress, sanity is a finite supply

 

I know life comes with a cost and sometimes it's rough

But now it's time, I've had enough

 

-Lose

Edited October 13, 2019 by Lose

[Tidebreaker 1,669]

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Approved.

 

I have felt many of the same feelings as this piece has described. There have been countless pieces that try to describe this muddle of emotions, but I think this one has to take the cake. This deserves a lot, and I mean A LOT of recognition. You could even be featured in an issue of the Newspaper sometime soon! I know I wouldn't hesitate to give this AWS Piece of the year.

 

Thank you for putting into words what I have been feeling for many years...Sincerely.

[Person_Random 4,991]

Woah... that was great.  Words cannot describe how I feel.  I have been struggling with my mental health for the past two and some years, and this just basically wrote out what I was thinking.  All my friends were gone and the only person I could have depended upon just kept calling me too negative.  Thanks for saying what I couldn't ever write.

 

I was also reminded of 1-800-273-8255 by Logic (great song, I memorized it in a week).

[Lose 881]

Edits:

This is too good to edit.

 

Approved.

 

I have felt many of the same feelings as this piece has described. There have been countless pieces that try to describe this muddle of emotions, but I think this one has to take the cake. This deserves a lot, and I mean A LOT of recognition. You could even be featured in an issue of the Newspaper sometime soon! I know I wouldn't hesitate to give this AWS Piece of the year.

 

Thank you for putting into words what I have been feeling for many years...Sincerely.

Woah... that was great.  Words cannot describe how I feel.  I have been struggling with my mental health for the past two and some years, and this just basically wrote out what I was thinking.  All my friends were gone and the only person I could have depended upon just kept calling me too negative.  Thanks for saying what I couldn't ever write.

 

I was also reminded of 1-800-273-8255 by Logic (great song, I memorized it in a week).

Thank you both. It means a lot. Sorry this took so long to make.

Expect more stories soon.

[Lose 881]

 

 

Ah. Fixed.

[tankicola 111]

On 6/15/2020 at 9:58 AM, At_Shin said:

I have also felt these emotions,

That life isn't as fun as it used be,

Once loved people were trapping my existence in judgy notions

I changed, fundamentally because of that, you see.

 

When your cries for help tend to be laughed at,

When your mischeves start and end with sadness

You start behaving like a brat.

 What follows is scolding, shouting, crying and madness.

 

After a long time you realise,

Life can be lead without people of your past,

Travel into the future, and capitalise

On the better things, leave those who mock you aghast.

 

Yes, life is a long road,

It has many slopes and bends, but they needn't be only hardship

Bring out your curious nature, decrypt the Earth's code,

See the beauty of our planet once again

Are you trying to write a poem yourself? You could post it separately in the AWS. 

[Venem 615]

7 minutes ago, At_Shin said:

it was intended to be a response to Lose's poem. We need not give up on life. I believe we should always have hope that things will change for the better. We should be curious to find out where the road takes ahead. We should marvel at our existence, take solace under a tree, form new relationships with new people.

It's a great poem, but I hope you know that @Lose wasn't really on the verge of committing suicide... I really hope that's true. XD 

[Lose 881]

7 hours ago, SHREYA88 said:

It's a great poem, but I hope you know that @Lose wasn't really on the verge of committing suicide... I really hope that's true. XD 

Sadly, that is false. I've had suicidal thoughts for a large portion of my life, but around that time I was ready to follow through with what I was thinking. If I hadn't told my friend, and if he hadn't acted on it.... I would probably be dead by now.

 

It's been about a year since that, and since then, things have improved and started to calm down. There's still those thoughts a lot, if not all the time, but I'm taking antidepressants and plan to see therapy.

 

On a lighter note, @At_Shin, that was an amazing poem! You should write in the AWS if you haven't already - you have a lot of potential. 

[Venem 615]

14 hours ago, Lose said:

Sadly, that is false. I've had suicidal thoughts for a large portion of my life, but around that time I was ready to follow through with what I was thinking. If I hadn't told my friend, and if he hadn't acted on it.... I would probably be dead by now.

 

It's been about a year since that, and since then, things have improved and started to calm down. There's still those thoughts a lot, if not all the time, but I'm taking antidepressants and plan to see therapy.

 

On a lighter note, @At_Shin, that was an amazing poem! You should write in the AWS if you haven't already - you have a lot of potential. 

At least you ain't drowning anymore... That's what matters! Keep floating... Life is all about floating... You gotta constantly respond to what life throws at you in the best way possible, and float...

You got a great friend...

This poem exists coz you exist. Thank your friend, thank the world, thank nature, thank Life, thank God. And you'll live to be 100.

(P.S. You'll live to be 100 only if you write more wonderful poems.)

 

[Lose 881]

4 minutes ago, SHREYA88 said:

At least you ain't drowning anymore... That's what matters! Keep floating... Life is all about floating... You gotta constantly respond to what life throws at you in the best way possible, and float...

You got a great friend...

This poem exists coz you exist. Thank your friend, thank the world, thank nature, thank Life, thank God. And you'll live to be 100.

(P.S. You'll live to be 100 only if you write more wonderful poems.)

 

The funny thing is I nearly drowned when in 3rd grade and I still have a big fear of deep water and cannot swim that well

[Venem 615]

9 minutes ago, Lose said:

The funny thing is I nearly drowned when in 3rd grade and I still have a big fear of deep water and cannot swim that well

Ok, don't bother to float (or drown)...

How about flying?

[tankicola 111]

13 hours ago, At_Shin said:

! I will submit my poem to AWS. 

You might want to check it first, though. 

[yasgfgfffgf 282]

On 6/18/2020 at 12:11 PM, SHREYA88 said:

It's a great poem, but I hope you know that @Lose wasn't really on the verge of committing suicide... I really hope that's true. XD 

 

16 hours ago, Lose said:

Sadly, that is false. I've had suicidal thoughts for a large portion of my life, but around that time I was ready to follow through with what I was thinking. If I hadn't told my friend, and if he hadn't acted on it.... I would probably be dead by now.

 

It's been about a year since that, and since then, things have improved and started to calm down. There's still those thoughts a lot, if not all the time, but I'm taking antidepressants and plan to see therapy.

 

On a lighter note, @At_Shin, that was an amazing poem! You should write in the AWS if you haven't already - you have a lot of potential. 

@Lose

i know what you mean. ive had the same toughts a very long time by bullies. ( when a lot of people say your better dead than alive for years you start believing them). it is something that you wil never forget/keep hunting you for the rest of your life. but never forget they say: something beautiful never lasts long, but so it is for something that gives you these toughts, somthing awfull.  also no matter how deep you have been in sch** you will always still be able to have fun

Edited June 19, 2020 by yasgfgfffgf

[Venerable 2,967]

I got goosebumps after reading this (again)... Been quite some time now! This poem really resonates with my soul.

 

What a tale of rhyming despair, 

You do have that poetic flair!